I quit using this blog because when ever I tried posting something that I had wrote, it wouldn't properly paragraph it, and that got on my nerves so I decided to make a new one... and I've read what I wrote on here, and I see how much I've changed and grown as a person since creating a new blog and going through some really tough times... it all just made me relize that God is good no matter what we face. <3
follow me on my new blog(:
Katelyn
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Behind The Scenes
This song Behind The Scenes by Francesca Battistelli makes me think of two questions, if we knew fully what everyone goes through, know and understand every detail and nothing to be left out, and to feel the pain of what it's like for someone else, would we treat them the same way that we do now? What if we knew, would we be more willing to pick up our crosses follow Jesus and show those around us his love? or would we freak out too soon and unknowingly add to their pain when we choose to walk away?
what a tragedy that would be! Jesus loves them soo much, and we should show them that. Is it way too much to ask of you to make someone feel like they're not just another face in a crowd? Make them feel like they matter, they're loved, they have someone who, for once, actually CARES? Like you're not all talk, you're actions and words match up?
I know this idea freaks people out. Why? well, have you looked at the world yet? When it comes to 'love', we're expected to love those who look like they deserve it... not that nerd at lunch, not that shy kid, not the girl in the corner with her head down, not that person who is sitting alone, not that gir or that boy. But, instead we're to love those who "deserve" love. Not true at all.
What does the Bible have to say about this topic?
The second is this, 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no other commandment greater than these. (NRSV, Mark 12:31)
You have heard that the law of Moses says, "Love your neighbor and hate your enemy." But I say, love your enemies! Pray for those who persecute you! In that way, you will be acting as true children of your Father in heaven. For he gives his sunlight to both the evil and the good, and he sends rain on the just and on the unjust, too. If you love only those who love you, what good is that? Even corrupt tax collectors do that much. If you are kind only to your friends, how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect. (NLT, Matthew 5:43-48)
If I speak in the tongues of mortals and of angels, but do not have love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give away all my possessions, and if I hand over my body so that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing. (NRSV, 1 Corinthians 13:1-3)
Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. But as for prophecies, they will come to an end; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will come to an end... And now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; and the greatest of these is love. (NRSV, 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, 13)
We love because he first loved us. Those who say, "I love God," and hate their brothers or sisters, are liars; for those who do not love a brother or sister whom they have seen, cannot love God whom they have not seen. The commandment we have from him is this: those who love God must love their brothers and sisters also. (NRSV, 1 John 4:19-21)
I don't know how much the Bible talks about love, but you should get the point. So, here's the song by Francesca Battistelli;
When I googled the lyrics for this, I thought of one person. (out of respect, no names will be given.) This one person, rides my bus and sits infront of me. He told me something and I'll never forget what he said. He said he tried to kill himself, and my jaw dropped. Why? because I never would have suspected he would be one to do that or attempt to do that.
People put up a dang good front and pull off the "I'm ok" attitude. Have you ever thought that the people you've walked by today, could go home, and on their way, they get into a reck and die? or even worse, go home and committ suicide? What if you see it on the news the next day? Will you regret not taking time out of your day to make an eternal difference in their life? Will you share Jesus with them?
Because as the song states, Even though I've got the lines rehearsed
A picture only paints a thousand words
Things aren't always what they seem
You're only seeing part of me
There's more than you could ever know
Behind the scenes
I'm incomplete and I'm undone
But I suppose like everyone
There's so much more that's going on
Behind the scenes
please, don't wait to change the way you treat people. treat them the way Jesus would. Treat them as you wish to be treated.
Here's a challenge for you to do for the rest of your life, and yes, I'm aware not everyone will take it. I challenge you to go that one extra mile for someone, anyone. It doesn't matter who... everyone needs to feel like they matter and are loved for who they are. Your challenge? go that one extra mile for 3 people every week til you die. I know it's a crazy challenge, but it's possible.
are you ready? I am! Let's do this.
- Katelyn
what a tragedy that would be! Jesus loves them soo much, and we should show them that. Is it way too much to ask of you to make someone feel like they're not just another face in a crowd? Make them feel like they matter, they're loved, they have someone who, for once, actually CARES? Like you're not all talk, you're actions and words match up?
I know this idea freaks people out. Why? well, have you looked at the world yet? When it comes to 'love', we're expected to love those who look like they deserve it... not that nerd at lunch, not that shy kid, not the girl in the corner with her head down, not that person who is sitting alone, not that gir or that boy. But, instead we're to love those who "deserve" love. Not true at all.
What does the Bible have to say about this topic?
The second is this, 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no other commandment greater than these. (NRSV, Mark 12:31)
You have heard that the law of Moses says, "Love your neighbor and hate your enemy." But I say, love your enemies! Pray for those who persecute you! In that way, you will be acting as true children of your Father in heaven. For he gives his sunlight to both the evil and the good, and he sends rain on the just and on the unjust, too. If you love only those who love you, what good is that? Even corrupt tax collectors do that much. If you are kind only to your friends, how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect. (NLT, Matthew 5:43-48)
If I speak in the tongues of mortals and of angels, but do not have love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give away all my possessions, and if I hand over my body so that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing. (NRSV, 1 Corinthians 13:1-3)
Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. But as for prophecies, they will come to an end; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will come to an end... And now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; and the greatest of these is love. (NRSV, 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, 13)
We love because he first loved us. Those who say, "I love God," and hate their brothers or sisters, are liars; for those who do not love a brother or sister whom they have seen, cannot love God whom they have not seen. The commandment we have from him is this: those who love God must love their brothers and sisters also. (NRSV, 1 John 4:19-21)
I don't know how much the Bible talks about love, but you should get the point. So, here's the song by Francesca Battistelli;
When I googled the lyrics for this, I thought of one person. (out of respect, no names will be given.) This one person, rides my bus and sits infront of me. He told me something and I'll never forget what he said. He said he tried to kill himself, and my jaw dropped. Why? because I never would have suspected he would be one to do that or attempt to do that.
People put up a dang good front and pull off the "I'm ok" attitude. Have you ever thought that the people you've walked by today, could go home, and on their way, they get into a reck and die? or even worse, go home and committ suicide? What if you see it on the news the next day? Will you regret not taking time out of your day to make an eternal difference in their life? Will you share Jesus with them?
Because as the song states, Even though I've got the lines rehearsed
A picture only paints a thousand words
Things aren't always what they seem
You're only seeing part of me
There's more than you could ever know
Behind the scenes
I'm incomplete and I'm undone
But I suppose like everyone
There's so much more that's going on
Behind the scenes
please, don't wait to change the way you treat people. treat them the way Jesus would. Treat them as you wish to be treated.
Here's a challenge for you to do for the rest of your life, and yes, I'm aware not everyone will take it. I challenge you to go that one extra mile for someone, anyone. It doesn't matter who... everyone needs to feel like they matter and are loved for who they are. Your challenge? go that one extra mile for 3 people every week til you die. I know it's a crazy challenge, but it's possible.
are you ready? I am! Let's do this.
- Katelyn
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
5071404... Your new identity
I don't think I can ever forget that number. On Tuesday, which would be today, March 2nd 2010, in Self Development at school, we went to a prison as a field trip or something.
Go here to read the comments from me of what went on today; http://www.facebook.com/livethecause#!/livethecause?v=feed&story_fbid=383441530288
That number, 5071404, in prison, means that's what you answer to. and at the start, we had to put on this thing that had the number on it, (btw, each number is different) and in prison, you're not known by your name, in prison, you have NO identity, except for that number.... and you must memorize it in there. One of the guys made us memorize the number in 5 seconds... and then asked random people what their number is.... backwards! I failed and had to go by the wall and look in the mirror and memorize my number. Do you realize how hell-ish it would be to actually be in prison for like 20 + years?! I couldn't stand it that one day!
Before I got in the room area, we had to go 5 at a time in there, and I could already hear them yelling. And I didn't know why and I still don't, but what I did know, was that I wanted to go home. badly! it was aweful!
I didn't know what to think when I found out that, by your number, not your name, you are known for in prison. When you get that number, you have no identity. No one is going to call you by your name, they'll call you by your number. I wouldn't be 'Katelyn Frye', I'd be 5071404.
Although, in prison, you're known by a number. but, by God, the God who created the earth, the birds, the sky, the grass, the water, the sun...etc. He doesn't know you by some number... He doesn't know you as 'Creation number 2999939041' , He knows you by NAME! How cool is that?
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! (Psalm 139)
I'm glad that God knows me, not by some number, but by my name.
Look at this verse again;
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake, I am still with you.
wow, I don't know what to say. It's amazing that God knows me! and you! Have you ever thought about that? like really thought about it... I don't mean just think about it for a few minutes, but for days, weeks, months, years ect. even if you did do that, you wouldn't understand Him and why he does that. I don't even understand it!! But I'm in awe of Him!
5071404, is not my identity. My identity is found in Jesus and my name is Katelyn!!
Go here to read the comments from me of what went on today; http://www.facebook.com/livethecause#!/livethecause?v=feed&story_fbid=383441530288
That number, 5071404, in prison, means that's what you answer to. and at the start, we had to put on this thing that had the number on it, (btw, each number is different) and in prison, you're not known by your name, in prison, you have NO identity, except for that number.... and you must memorize it in there. One of the guys made us memorize the number in 5 seconds... and then asked random people what their number is.... backwards! I failed and had to go by the wall and look in the mirror and memorize my number. Do you realize how hell-ish it would be to actually be in prison for like 20 + years?! I couldn't stand it that one day!
Before I got in the room area, we had to go 5 at a time in there, and I could already hear them yelling. And I didn't know why and I still don't, but what I did know, was that I wanted to go home. badly! it was aweful!
I didn't know what to think when I found out that, by your number, not your name, you are known for in prison. When you get that number, you have no identity. No one is going to call you by your name, they'll call you by your number. I wouldn't be 'Katelyn Frye', I'd be 5071404.
Although, in prison, you're known by a number. but, by God, the God who created the earth, the birds, the sky, the grass, the water, the sun...etc. He doesn't know you by some number... He doesn't know you as 'Creation number 2999939041' , He knows you by NAME! How cool is that?
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! (Psalm 139)
I'm glad that God knows me, not by some number, but by my name.
Look at this verse again;
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake, I am still with you.
wow, I don't know what to say. It's amazing that God knows me! and you! Have you ever thought about that? like really thought about it... I don't mean just think about it for a few minutes, but for days, weeks, months, years ect. even if you did do that, you wouldn't understand Him and why he does that. I don't even understand it!! But I'm in awe of Him!
5071404, is not my identity. My identity is found in Jesus and my name is Katelyn!!
Monday, February 22, 2010
When Everything Falls Apart
I love that moment when you're flipping through the music on your mp3 player and you find that one perfect song. You know what I mean, that one song that just describes everything about the way you're feeling.
Well, I just did that very thing... and this is the song that just made me think "That's it!"
The song is Everything Falls by Fee. << Youtube it. (I can't post it here because this school laptop is being dumb and has it, with every single random- and I do mean random- thing blocked... but I can post the lyrics from a site that has the right lyrics! You said
You'd never leave or forsake me
When you said,
This life is gonna shake me
You said
This world is gonna bring trouble on my soul
This I know
When everything falls apart
Your arms hold me together
When everything falls apart
You're the only hope for this heart
When everything falls apart
And my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong
You keep holding on
If you know me at all, you'd know this song is for someone like me you will not give up for anything. I won't give up when giving in to the idea of giving up seems so much easier than persuing after whatever it is that Jesus has called me to do. I won't give up, ever. Why? well, reason #1 it's not in the book. #2 it sure as heck aint an option for me or for you.
Giving up does sound easy, but it's not acceptable. we must not give up. We must continue to fight the fight.
Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses. (1 Timothy 6:12)
You know I have to say this, it's been hard for me but it's all worth it. It's hard when your stuck with a very unsupportive mother (sorry ma, but you are. I do love ya, but, you're not helping me very well. was I too blunt?) who says it alot better than she can show it. Get real! please.
Why do I say she's unsupportive?
well ;
#1: I told her about the Campus Ministry and all she said was 'that's cool'
#2: I told her about the threat of a high school shooting (which isn't credible, but, it could very well happen.. we can never be sure) and what did she say? 'oh, that's cool' for real? did my mom really just say that a threat of high school shooting was cool? first, she dismisses that threat (credible or not, she'd still miss the point) second, by dismissing the threat, she dismisses their real need... a spiritual one. their need to feel like they matter, like someone loves them, like someone will actually listen.... like someone who will risk everything and go share Jesus with them.
#3 I told her about the school district planning on changing the block schedules for next year... going from 4 classes a day, 2 nights to do homework, to 8 classes a day and one night to do all of your homework... she wasn't getting that either... she doesn't get how every student is going to be extremely stressed out, and what about the teachers!? goodness. how are they going to grade all those papers!?
it's stressful just thinking about #3... it's not how I planned Junior year of high school to be, but, pray please!!
I mean, I guess I can't blame Ma for all of this... but, she is the majority.. and I do not mean that in a good way.
Just being a Christian who isn't ashamed of the gospel, is a battle today.
it's hard, but I'm willing to go where I'm sent. Are you?
Well, I guess simply put, I'd say never give up and at times you may feel at odds, but bring it! with God nothing is impossible!
The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. (Psalm 18:2)
I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. (John 16:33)
Well, I just did that very thing... and this is the song that just made me think "That's it!"
The song is Everything Falls by Fee. << Youtube it. (I can't post it here because this school laptop is being dumb and has it, with every single random- and I do mean random- thing blocked... but I can post the lyrics from a site that has the right lyrics! You said
You'd never leave or forsake me
When you said,
This life is gonna shake me
You said
This world is gonna bring trouble on my soul
This I know
When everything falls apart
Your arms hold me together
When everything falls apart
You're the only hope for this heart
When everything falls apart
And my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong
You keep holding on
If you know me at all, you'd know this song is for someone like me you will not give up for anything. I won't give up when giving in to the idea of giving up seems so much easier than persuing after whatever it is that Jesus has called me to do. I won't give up, ever. Why? well, reason #1 it's not in the book. #2 it sure as heck aint an option for me or for you.
Giving up does sound easy, but it's not acceptable. we must not give up. We must continue to fight the fight.
Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses. (1 Timothy 6:12)
You know I have to say this, it's been hard for me but it's all worth it. It's hard when your stuck with a very unsupportive mother (sorry ma, but you are. I do love ya, but, you're not helping me very well. was I too blunt?) who says it alot better than she can show it. Get real! please.
Why do I say she's unsupportive?
well ;
#1: I told her about the Campus Ministry and all she said was 'that's cool'
#2: I told her about the threat of a high school shooting (which isn't credible, but, it could very well happen.. we can never be sure) and what did she say? 'oh, that's cool' for real? did my mom really just say that a threat of high school shooting was cool? first, she dismisses that threat (credible or not, she'd still miss the point) second, by dismissing the threat, she dismisses their real need... a spiritual one. their need to feel like they matter, like someone loves them, like someone will actually listen.... like someone who will risk everything and go share Jesus with them.
#3 I told her about the school district planning on changing the block schedules for next year... going from 4 classes a day, 2 nights to do homework, to 8 classes a day and one night to do all of your homework... she wasn't getting that either... she doesn't get how every student is going to be extremely stressed out, and what about the teachers!? goodness. how are they going to grade all those papers!?
it's stressful just thinking about #3... it's not how I planned Junior year of high school to be, but, pray please!!
I mean, I guess I can't blame Ma for all of this... but, she is the majority.. and I do not mean that in a good way.
Just being a Christian who isn't ashamed of the gospel, is a battle today.
it's hard, but I'm willing to go where I'm sent. Are you?
Well, I guess simply put, I'd say never give up and at times you may feel at odds, but bring it! with God nothing is impossible!
The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. (Psalm 18:2)
I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. (John 16:33)
Friday, February 12, 2010
Lord, Empty Me
(Lyrics by Chris Sligh in his song 'Empty Me')
Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So i can be
Filled with you
I’ve seen just enough of the quick buys
Of the best lies
To know how prodigals can be drawn away
I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change
I really think that this song has become my prayer that I pray for daily.
I know what happens when I’m not filled with Jesus… I’m a complete mess and I don’t know what to do or how to do anything… I also know how amazing it truly is to be filled with Jesus. Nothing in this world can ever top that feeling! I can’t describe it… you just have to experience it for yourself.
I think it was yesterday, 2/11/10 , that I realized I wasn’t really willing to surrender two areas of my life… I wanted control over them. And guess where that has got me? No where… It was so stupid of me to do that. And yet it was in vain too. It was totally for me. Not for Jesus. I thought it was for Him, but I was wrong.
I wanted control over the Campus Ministry that I haven’t heard anything back yet from the activities director. I wasn’t really praying about it either. And I wanted control over I guess “changing” someone’s life and have them trust in Christ… but it doesn’t work that way. Only Jesus has the power to fully transform someone’s life from a living hell to feeling like they, with Jesus, can face what they are going through.
I’ve realized that wanting control over things in your life, doesn’t turn out so well as compared to when we surrender those areas to Christ alone. I know surrender doesn’t come easy to anyone. Especially when it comes to fully surrendering everything to God and trusting in Him that He knows what He’s doing.
Take a look at Jeremiah 29:11 with me;
“For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”
It’s just that simple; He knows full well what He is doing. Why can’t we just trust Him in that area and not try to take over and end up doing a crash and burn?
Like I said earlier, surrender is hard for everyone. But it’s totally worth it.
Dear Lord,
Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So i can be
Filled with you
In Jesus Name, Amen.
Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So i can be
Filled with you
I’ve seen just enough of the quick buys
Of the best lies
To know how prodigals can be drawn away
I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change
I really think that this song has become my prayer that I pray for daily.
I know what happens when I’m not filled with Jesus… I’m a complete mess and I don’t know what to do or how to do anything… I also know how amazing it truly is to be filled with Jesus. Nothing in this world can ever top that feeling! I can’t describe it… you just have to experience it for yourself.
I think it was yesterday, 2/11/10 , that I realized I wasn’t really willing to surrender two areas of my life… I wanted control over them. And guess where that has got me? No where… It was so stupid of me to do that. And yet it was in vain too. It was totally for me. Not for Jesus. I thought it was for Him, but I was wrong.
I wanted control over the Campus Ministry that I haven’t heard anything back yet from the activities director. I wasn’t really praying about it either. And I wanted control over I guess “changing” someone’s life and have them trust in Christ… but it doesn’t work that way. Only Jesus has the power to fully transform someone’s life from a living hell to feeling like they, with Jesus, can face what they are going through.
I’ve realized that wanting control over things in your life, doesn’t turn out so well as compared to when we surrender those areas to Christ alone. I know surrender doesn’t come easy to anyone. Especially when it comes to fully surrendering everything to God and trusting in Him that He knows what He’s doing.
Take a look at Jeremiah 29:11 with me;
“For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”
It’s just that simple; He knows full well what He is doing. Why can’t we just trust Him in that area and not try to take over and end up doing a crash and burn?
Like I said earlier, surrender is hard for everyone. But it’s totally worth it.
Dear Lord,
Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So i can be
Filled with you
In Jesus Name, Amen.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Surrender Seriously or Not At All
---This is a devotional I wrote for the facebook group titled 'The New Breed For The Cause (A Devotional Group)' you should join (: I send out the ones I write on Saturdays in a fb message to all the members... and this one, will be sent out on 2/20/10.---
As I was walking home from the bus stop on Thursday (2/11/10), I had the song ‘Any Road, Any Cost’ by Point Of Grace playing on my mp3 player, and I began to think, “Am I truly willing to surrender everything, surrender every part of my life to Jesus and follow where He leads me?” At that point I began to question myself and wonder if God is ever pleased with the way Christians these days choose to surrender their lives. How is partial surrender biblical? Either you surrender seriously or just don’t even bother if you’re going to give God the attitude of ‘Oh you can have this area of my life, but you can’t have this part, because it’s mine.’ How is that biblical? Give me a verse that supports that excuse to not fully surrendering everything to Christ… He gave it all for you on that cross, why aren’t you giving your all back to Him?
If we we’re to be honest, we have no acceptable excuse for that type of response.
Here’s something from Mark 8:34
Then Jesus called the people to him. His followers were also there. Then Jesus said, "If any person wants to follow me, he must say 'No' to the things he wants. That person must accept the cross (suffering) that is given to him, and he must follow me. (ERV)
I don’t know about you, but I fail at times when it comes to this whole surrendering thing. Why do we fail? Because this word ‘surrender’ is hardly mentioned in today’s world, nor is it something that people want to strive for. This world has a whole another message (‘get what you want and don’t worry about anyone else,” “do what you want to do and don’t allow others to tell you what is right or wrong…” etc.) and I’d probably have another devotional or two just to cover that one.
I, personally, think that the whole idea of surrendering ones life fully to Christ, is something that every Christian out there struggles with, because that word ‘surrender’ is not talked about nor is it something that people think of as something they should do… because after all, they most likely think that it’s some stupid robotic thing where it’s actually not even like that! It’s not some ‘Oh, I’ve surrendered my life to Christ, now what do I do?... Say “beep beep I love you, God’ “Beep beep I love you, God.’ God didn’t create us to be like robots, nor am I convinced that he wants us to give a robotic like response… He loves us and therefore we shouldn’t give that sort of response to One who loves us so much that He gave his only Son.
I think people who have surrendered their lives to Christ, although they face their struggles with it, are looked down upon by this world as people who have lost their minds and have surrendered everything to this God whom no one has ever seen. And that takes faith!
Check out Hebrews 11:1 and what it has to say about faith;
1Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Now, I’m almost done with this devotional but I would like to give you a verse in Revelation chapter 3 verses 15-16;
15I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.
When you do partial surrender, you’re making God sick in a sense… surrender your life seriously or not at all. Hot or cold? Love him? Hate him?
At the cross, Jesus gave His all just for you… He expects you to give Him your all.
Are you willing to pick up your cross and “Follow Me (Jesus)”? I sure am. Let’s not fake it this time though. Mean it every step of the way and let's continue to fight the good fight.
Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses. (1 Timothy 6:12)
REMEMBER: Jesus said, "If any person wants to follow me, he must say 'No' to the things he wants. That person must accept the cross (suffering) that is given to him, and he must follow me. (ERV)
14For Christ's love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. (2 Cor. 5:14)
- Katelyn
As I was walking home from the bus stop on Thursday (2/11/10), I had the song ‘Any Road, Any Cost’ by Point Of Grace playing on my mp3 player, and I began to think, “Am I truly willing to surrender everything, surrender every part of my life to Jesus and follow where He leads me?” At that point I began to question myself and wonder if God is ever pleased with the way Christians these days choose to surrender their lives. How is partial surrender biblical? Either you surrender seriously or just don’t even bother if you’re going to give God the attitude of ‘Oh you can have this area of my life, but you can’t have this part, because it’s mine.’ How is that biblical? Give me a verse that supports that excuse to not fully surrendering everything to Christ… He gave it all for you on that cross, why aren’t you giving your all back to Him?
If we we’re to be honest, we have no acceptable excuse for that type of response.
Here’s something from Mark 8:34
Then Jesus called the people to him. His followers were also there. Then Jesus said, "If any person wants to follow me, he must say 'No' to the things he wants. That person must accept the cross (suffering) that is given to him, and he must follow me. (ERV)
I don’t know about you, but I fail at times when it comes to this whole surrendering thing. Why do we fail? Because this word ‘surrender’ is hardly mentioned in today’s world, nor is it something that people want to strive for. This world has a whole another message (‘get what you want and don’t worry about anyone else,” “do what you want to do and don’t allow others to tell you what is right or wrong…” etc.) and I’d probably have another devotional or two just to cover that one.
I, personally, think that the whole idea of surrendering ones life fully to Christ, is something that every Christian out there struggles with, because that word ‘surrender’ is not talked about nor is it something that people think of as something they should do… because after all, they most likely think that it’s some stupid robotic thing where it’s actually not even like that! It’s not some ‘Oh, I’ve surrendered my life to Christ, now what do I do?... Say “beep beep I love you, God’ “Beep beep I love you, God.’ God didn’t create us to be like robots, nor am I convinced that he wants us to give a robotic like response… He loves us and therefore we shouldn’t give that sort of response to One who loves us so much that He gave his only Son.
I think people who have surrendered their lives to Christ, although they face their struggles with it, are looked down upon by this world as people who have lost their minds and have surrendered everything to this God whom no one has ever seen. And that takes faith!
Check out Hebrews 11:1 and what it has to say about faith;
1Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Now, I’m almost done with this devotional but I would like to give you a verse in Revelation chapter 3 verses 15-16;
15I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.
When you do partial surrender, you’re making God sick in a sense… surrender your life seriously or not at all. Hot or cold? Love him? Hate him?
At the cross, Jesus gave His all just for you… He expects you to give Him your all.
Are you willing to pick up your cross and “Follow Me (Jesus)”? I sure am. Let’s not fake it this time though. Mean it every step of the way and let's continue to fight the good fight.
Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses. (1 Timothy 6:12)
REMEMBER: Jesus said, "If any person wants to follow me, he must say 'No' to the things he wants. That person must accept the cross (suffering) that is given to him, and he must follow me. (ERV)
14For Christ's love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. (2 Cor. 5:14)
- Katelyn
Sunday, February 7, 2010
How does God do it!?
Goodness!! --read the post below and then read this one--
Woah, God is the absolute essence of amazing and beyond what words can ever begin to describe Him. I'm just amazed at what he has done and how he has used what seem like bad situations and turned them around and you just fall in love with Him!! agh!!!!!! I LOVE JESUS SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH MORE THAN LIFE!!!
WOW. Our God IS amaziiinggg!!! I know it was bad, but I dont care! My God is amaziingg!!!
I'll just post here these two songs by Desperation Band;
35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. -Romans 8
Woah, God is the absolute essence of amazing and beyond what words can ever begin to describe Him. I'm just amazed at what he has done and how he has used what seem like bad situations and turned them around and you just fall in love with Him!! agh!!!!!! I LOVE JESUS SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH MORE THAN LIFE!!!
WOW. Our God IS amaziiinggg!!! I know it was bad, but I dont care! My God is amaziingg!!!
I'll just post here these two songs by Desperation Band;
35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. -Romans 8
Can Anybody Hear Me?
I don't know what it is, but I'm really starting to hate the month of February... and I really wish I knew why. It seems for me to be the month where alot of things happen and I get stressed out easily of what seems to be the smallest of things. I didn't know that such small things could drive me crazy.
Like last night I couldn't sleep like at all on that floor.. it was uncomfortable and I woke up like 3-4 times. It was annoying. and this morning, well, I won't go into detail, but I lost a friend (no, they did not die... the friendship just ended. don't ask for details, cus I'm not giving them to anyone. No hard feelings!)
Why is this month, my birthday month, always seem so dramatic in a sense? that's not really a good thing either. Like my friend had her sweet 16 last night, and I did enjoy it. But, I guess I just wish I could have a party like that. See, I've never had a birthday party in my life... well, I think one time I did.. but I, the birthday girl, ended up paying for everything. How messed up is that?! It's not even right.
But, I guess that having materalistic things at your party won't make it better, I think it'd be the people you choose to spend it with that counts. Like say you could go to New York or Colorado or wherever, but would you be happy if you didn't have the people with you that you wanted to spend it with? Could you honestly be happy? I guess that could depend on who the person is and what their personality is like and how they choose to view the situation.
To be honest, it was kind of like me... but no out of state travels.
This is the one thing that really gets to me.. and I shouldn't let it. But what do I do? What would you do if you were me?
Why is this the hardest month for me every year? Can/will it ever get easier? It's always a hard month because everything that I go to and would like to go to, seems to be in the month of February.
Like Meredith said, I don't feel far from God, it's just that the actual song is not on youtube, and that's what I found.. the story behind the song. I wanted to post the whole song because I don't feel like any other person.. like my mom or my friends or whoever is actually listening. Well not really listening like when you're talking, but the type of listening that's empathetic. Like hearing someone before they even open up and start talking.
What happened to being empathetic towards people? I guess what I'm saying is that we lack on empathy...
difference between empathy and sympathy: http://www.wisegeek.com/what-is-the-difference-between-sympathy-and-empathy.htm
pray for me please.
P.S i know that I didnt give away much detail, but please pray.
- Katelyn
Like last night I couldn't sleep like at all on that floor.. it was uncomfortable and I woke up like 3-4 times. It was annoying. and this morning, well, I won't go into detail, but I lost a friend (no, they did not die... the friendship just ended. don't ask for details, cus I'm not giving them to anyone. No hard feelings!)
Why is this month, my birthday month, always seem so dramatic in a sense? that's not really a good thing either. Like my friend had her sweet 16 last night, and I did enjoy it. But, I guess I just wish I could have a party like that. See, I've never had a birthday party in my life... well, I think one time I did.. but I, the birthday girl, ended up paying for everything. How messed up is that?! It's not even right.
But, I guess that having materalistic things at your party won't make it better, I think it'd be the people you choose to spend it with that counts. Like say you could go to New York or Colorado or wherever, but would you be happy if you didn't have the people with you that you wanted to spend it with? Could you honestly be happy? I guess that could depend on who the person is and what their personality is like and how they choose to view the situation.
To be honest, it was kind of like me... but no out of state travels.
This is the one thing that really gets to me.. and I shouldn't let it. But what do I do? What would you do if you were me?
Why is this the hardest month for me every year? Can/will it ever get easier? It's always a hard month because everything that I go to and would like to go to, seems to be in the month of February.
Like Meredith said, I don't feel far from God, it's just that the actual song is not on youtube, and that's what I found.. the story behind the song. I wanted to post the whole song because I don't feel like any other person.. like my mom or my friends or whoever is actually listening. Well not really listening like when you're talking, but the type of listening that's empathetic. Like hearing someone before they even open up and start talking.
What happened to being empathetic towards people? I guess what I'm saying is that we lack on empathy...
difference between empathy and sympathy: http://www.wisegeek.com/what-is-the-difference-between-sympathy-and-empathy.htm
pray for me please.
P.S i know that I didnt give away much detail, but please pray.
- Katelyn
Sunday, January 17, 2010
What Comes After High School?
Almost all of my friends know that after high school, I want to move to Colorado and go to Colorado Christian University and then, at some point, work in youth ministry. Why? Because I believe God can raise up a generation of teenagers who aren’t just radicals, but rebelutionaries… A generation of teenagers who go all out and do hard things for the glory of God. Teens do have a very high potential. We need people (adults) who believe in us and who “push” us to go all out for God. The only thing that scares me is leaving Ma here in Kansas City alone. See, my parents got a divorce. (It became official, by law, May 8th, 2009) My dad lives somewhere in Kansas. Of course, my mom is always free to visit me there… what kind of a daughter would I be to deny her mother visitation rights!? I know, I don’t want to leave her here… alone that is.
Maybe I should ‘hook’ her up? Ugh, that sounded just as weird out loud as it did in my head… There’s something else that scares me a little… well, a lot. Not for me though… but for the other teenagers at my high school. See, somewhere close to the beginning of the school year, another teen made a threat to shoot the school up… my principle said it’s not a credible threat. Do I believe him? I want to. But, when it comes right down to it, no, I really don’t believe him. (I feel bad for saying that because he’s a nice guy..but, I believe that showing others love and compassion and kindness seems to be the only one that’ll prevent violence.) I want to so bad though!! But, I’m starting to feel that like if I do, do that, then I’d be dismissing the teens real need. They need to feel loved. They need to feel like they’re being heard… they need to, when they’re the one sitting alone during lunch, have someone come over there and actually have a real conversation with them. They need Jesus… who will put their popularity, friends, and reputation on the line and get up and go share the greatest message of all time with them? Will you?
Of course when you say ‘yes’ to Jesus, satan will attack… why? He wants to distract you and get you to think things like ‘I have till the end of the school year to share Jesus with them.’ Or ‘they’re gonna hate me… they’ll think I’m some religious nut and ignore me.. or get mad at me.’ Or ‘I won’t know what to say if they ask a hard question..’ etc. If you’ve said ‘Yes’ to Jesus… go in His power. Not yours!!!! Ask Him for the wisdom… he said he’ll give it to you when you ask him for it. Let Him speak through you. It’s going to be worth it all. He loves you and He loves them… and that’ll NEVER change.
Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. Well, back to the threat thing… even though this one isn’t credible, what about the other like 1,000 something teenagers? What about them? I don’t like to think like this, but, they could one day just bring a gun to school. I hate thinking like that… I wish I wouldn’t. It’s quite negative. But, I’m not one to completely dismiss the possibility… It makes me cry though. I don’t want to think about people dying without Jesus and ending up in Hell… an eternal separation from a God who loves them so much that he sent his only son to die for them… If it does happen, (pray it never does!!!) and if I die in it (I know, it’s a sad thought and I don’t want to make you think like that…) know that I’d be heaven wishing you all were there with me.
(Mark Harris – I Wish You Were Here) Revelation 21:4 says, “He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” If I do die in it, if it ever happens, this song better be played at my funeral along with He Is With You by Mandisa. I know this is a sad blog post, but, I needed to write it or I’d lose my mind from not venting the way I feel. It’s clearly obvious that I am quite concerned about other teenagers dying without having a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. I know this started out with the plans of what I want to do after high school and then it switched tones… I didn’t really plan on writing about the threat, but I did. I’m not going to let it go either… us Christian teens need to kick into gear and start being like Jesus with skin on to the other students there on our campuses… high school, middle school and even elementary.
In everything we do, do it to please God not man… who gives a rep about it if you lose some friends because you loved them enough to go out and share Jesus with them? Who cares if you lose your ‘popularity’? Who cares if you lose your “cool”? The thing is, if you truly love them and don’t want to see them go to hell, you’d get on top of a mountain and shout it out. Shout it out that Jesus loves them more they can even fathom, shout it out that they can finally have the assurance to know that when they die, they’ll go to heaven. Shout it out that someone cares about them…. And he knows exactly how they feel and he’ll never leave nor forsake them. He is always there. He loves when we don’t love back. He is. He was. He always be!! For me, it doesn’t matter what happens, good or bad, I will still serve Christ!! Even if something bad happens, I will still serve him and still do what he has called me to do. It’s not the ‘well. I’ll serve him only if he does this or that for me…’ its not like that. It’s EVEN IF not ONLY IF!! Hold on to Jesus. Cast your cares on Him for He cares for you!! p.s. before I ever came to this high school, I made a commitment.
A commitment to love these teens whom I’ve never met before, and to accept them for who they are and not judge them, and to share Jesus with them… no matter what!! I’m so grateful I made this commitment. It’s made a good sophomore year for me.
“The thief has come to steal, kill and destroy, but Jesus has come so that you may have life and life to the fullest.” John 10:10
Colossians 4:5-6 “Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.”
Maybe I should ‘hook’ her up? Ugh, that sounded just as weird out loud as it did in my head… There’s something else that scares me a little… well, a lot. Not for me though… but for the other teenagers at my high school. See, somewhere close to the beginning of the school year, another teen made a threat to shoot the school up… my principle said it’s not a credible threat. Do I believe him? I want to. But, when it comes right down to it, no, I really don’t believe him. (I feel bad for saying that because he’s a nice guy..but, I believe that showing others love and compassion and kindness seems to be the only one that’ll prevent violence.) I want to so bad though!! But, I’m starting to feel that like if I do, do that, then I’d be dismissing the teens real need. They need to feel loved. They need to feel like they’re being heard… they need to, when they’re the one sitting alone during lunch, have someone come over there and actually have a real conversation with them. They need Jesus… who will put their popularity, friends, and reputation on the line and get up and go share the greatest message of all time with them? Will you?
Of course when you say ‘yes’ to Jesus, satan will attack… why? He wants to distract you and get you to think things like ‘I have till the end of the school year to share Jesus with them.’ Or ‘they’re gonna hate me… they’ll think I’m some religious nut and ignore me.. or get mad at me.’ Or ‘I won’t know what to say if they ask a hard question..’ etc. If you’ve said ‘Yes’ to Jesus… go in His power. Not yours!!!! Ask Him for the wisdom… he said he’ll give it to you when you ask him for it. Let Him speak through you. It’s going to be worth it all. He loves you and He loves them… and that’ll NEVER change.
Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. Well, back to the threat thing… even though this one isn’t credible, what about the other like 1,000 something teenagers? What about them? I don’t like to think like this, but, they could one day just bring a gun to school. I hate thinking like that… I wish I wouldn’t. It’s quite negative. But, I’m not one to completely dismiss the possibility… It makes me cry though. I don’t want to think about people dying without Jesus and ending up in Hell… an eternal separation from a God who loves them so much that he sent his only son to die for them… If it does happen, (pray it never does!!!) and if I die in it (I know, it’s a sad thought and I don’t want to make you think like that…) know that I’d be heaven wishing you all were there with me.
(Mark Harris – I Wish You Were Here) Revelation 21:4 says, “He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” If I do die in it, if it ever happens, this song better be played at my funeral along with He Is With You by Mandisa. I know this is a sad blog post, but, I needed to write it or I’d lose my mind from not venting the way I feel. It’s clearly obvious that I am quite concerned about other teenagers dying without having a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. I know this started out with the plans of what I want to do after high school and then it switched tones… I didn’t really plan on writing about the threat, but I did. I’m not going to let it go either… us Christian teens need to kick into gear and start being like Jesus with skin on to the other students there on our campuses… high school, middle school and even elementary.
In everything we do, do it to please God not man… who gives a rep about it if you lose some friends because you loved them enough to go out and share Jesus with them? Who cares if you lose your ‘popularity’? Who cares if you lose your “cool”? The thing is, if you truly love them and don’t want to see them go to hell, you’d get on top of a mountain and shout it out. Shout it out that Jesus loves them more they can even fathom, shout it out that they can finally have the assurance to know that when they die, they’ll go to heaven. Shout it out that someone cares about them…. And he knows exactly how they feel and he’ll never leave nor forsake them. He is always there. He loves when we don’t love back. He is. He was. He always be!! For me, it doesn’t matter what happens, good or bad, I will still serve Christ!! Even if something bad happens, I will still serve him and still do what he has called me to do. It’s not the ‘well. I’ll serve him only if he does this or that for me…’ its not like that. It’s EVEN IF not ONLY IF!! Hold on to Jesus. Cast your cares on Him for He cares for you!! p.s. before I ever came to this high school, I made a commitment.
A commitment to love these teens whom I’ve never met before, and to accept them for who they are and not judge them, and to share Jesus with them… no matter what!! I’m so grateful I made this commitment. It’s made a good sophomore year for me.
“The thief has come to steal, kill and destroy, but Jesus has come so that you may have life and life to the fullest.” John 10:10
Colossians 4:5-6 “Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.”
Thursday, January 7, 2010
While I'm Waiting
Oh my gooddnesss!!! I am almost at a complete loss for words!!! and that is a good thing.. I think. :)
Most of you know what has happened to me... with the whole campus ministry thing and how un-supportive my family is. (there are VERY few that actually do support me) I really wish i could say they're supportive, but in doing that, I'd be lying. I do, at times, wish things were different.
But, lets not talk how about how much I want things to be different. and lets talk about how much I love things the way they are.
I'm speechless from all the suppport I've gotten already. It is overwhelming!! But I love it!! it is very much needed and very very very very very appreciated.
I do have the times when I do want to completly give up because it seems to be way too hard for me. Do I? No. Have I? No. Will I? Nopers :)
I love Jesus and I will not give up for nothing. Even if things happen that seem like they could just rip everything to shreds, I'll still serve Christ.
Makes me think of the song While I'm Waiting by John Waller... ;
I love all of you xD
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Most of you know what has happened to me... with the whole campus ministry thing and how un-supportive my family is. (there are VERY few that actually do support me) I really wish i could say they're supportive, but in doing that, I'd be lying. I do, at times, wish things were different.
But, lets not talk how about how much I want things to be different. and lets talk about how much I love things the way they are.
I'm speechless from all the suppport I've gotten already. It is overwhelming!! But I love it!! it is very much needed and very very very very very appreciated.
I do have the times when I do want to completly give up because it seems to be way too hard for me. Do I? No. Have I? No. Will I? Nopers :)
I love Jesus and I will not give up for nothing. Even if things happen that seem like they could just rip everything to shreds, I'll still serve Christ.
Makes me think of the song While I'm Waiting by John Waller... ;
I love all of you xD
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Saturday, January 2, 2010
It's 2010!
Finally, 2009 is over! Not that I didn't enjoy parts of that year... 2009, in and of itself was a challenge... I'm glad '09 is over though. 2010 will have it's challenges. Not sure what though, but, I do know that if I knew what they are, I'd back down... But, I'm not like that. Just not that type of person who just up and quits.
I did not come this far to stop now. I'll stop when God says to stop. Because, well, after all, "being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." - Phillippians 1:6
2009 was a very much needed year. although, I hated one part. May 8th. (parents divorced...officially)... well, I see that God used that to show me that He is my Daddy! (I do love my 'earthly' dad ;) )
Psalm 68:5
"Father to the fatherless..."
Psalm 27:10
"Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will recieve me."
I feel like my parents have forsaken me... Mom more than dad. Even though I live with my mom, she's pretty irritating... I mean, she doesn't get it!!! She should be supporting me with the Campus Ministry... but she isn't. When I told her that someone made a threat (it's not a credible one.. thank God.) to shoot up my high school and she says she cares...but, from her response, I got the opposite message. she said, with a very obvious amount of sarcasism, "oh.. That's cool." And she wonders why I get ticked off at her... Think about it if you need to.
Dad, well, he was pretty much "absent" from my whole childhood... I mean, from what he's been through when he was a kid, he really doesn't know how to be there. I'm NOT mad at him either. It's his dad that I blame for this. That's who I'm kinda mad at. There's really no point in being mad, I'm wasting emotion on something that I have no power over to change. I can't change anyones past. I love my dad. He's the one who'd get it if I were to tell him about the threat. and he'd actually care... show it and say it. Even though, he doesn't know "how" to be there, when he does try, he does just fine and I love him for it. I hope he reads this one day.
Oh, sorry Ma but uh, your little girl, is STILL a daddas girl. Handle that!
alright, so, I'm super stoked that it's actually 2010!! I'm pumped for what God is gonna do!! He amazed me in '09. Bring it!! ;) sooo stoked!!
Hm, I want to know what is it exactly that's supporting me in this whole thing anyway and to NOT give up... well, here are some of my guesses.
1. Christian music
2. Reading my Bible
3. Prayer
4. Friends
5. very very very very very few family members
6. writing
I'm doing this (campus ministry thing) and I'm NOT giving up for anything!! Even if things don't go as I planned... they'll go as God says.
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me. Your rod and your staff, they comfort me." Psalm 23:4
"For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
EVEN IF! ;) and not Only if. (means I'll serve Christ no matter what happens and not the 'well, I'll serve Him only if this does(n't) happen..')
I did not come this far to stop now. I'll stop when God says to stop. Because, well, after all, "being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." - Phillippians 1:6
2009 was a very much needed year. although, I hated one part. May 8th. (parents divorced...officially)... well, I see that God used that to show me that He is my Daddy! (I do love my 'earthly' dad ;) )
Psalm 68:5
"Father to the fatherless..."
Psalm 27:10
"Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will recieve me."
I feel like my parents have forsaken me... Mom more than dad. Even though I live with my mom, she's pretty irritating... I mean, she doesn't get it!!! She should be supporting me with the Campus Ministry... but she isn't. When I told her that someone made a threat (it's not a credible one.. thank God.) to shoot up my high school and she says she cares...but, from her response, I got the opposite message. she said, with a very obvious amount of sarcasism, "oh.. That's cool." And she wonders why I get ticked off at her... Think about it if you need to.
Dad, well, he was pretty much "absent" from my whole childhood... I mean, from what he's been through when he was a kid, he really doesn't know how to be there. I'm NOT mad at him either. It's his dad that I blame for this. That's who I'm kinda mad at. There's really no point in being mad, I'm wasting emotion on something that I have no power over to change. I can't change anyones past. I love my dad. He's the one who'd get it if I were to tell him about the threat. and he'd actually care... show it and say it. Even though, he doesn't know "how" to be there, when he does try, he does just fine and I love him for it. I hope he reads this one day.
Oh, sorry Ma but uh, your little girl, is STILL a daddas girl. Handle that!
alright, so, I'm super stoked that it's actually 2010!! I'm pumped for what God is gonna do!! He amazed me in '09. Bring it!! ;) sooo stoked!!
Hm, I want to know what is it exactly that's supporting me in this whole thing anyway and to NOT give up... well, here are some of my guesses.
1. Christian music
2. Reading my Bible
3. Prayer
4. Friends
5. very very very very very few family members
6. writing
I'm doing this (campus ministry thing) and I'm NOT giving up for anything!! Even if things don't go as I planned... they'll go as God says.
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me. Your rod and your staff, they comfort me." Psalm 23:4
"For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
EVEN IF! ;) and not Only if. (means I'll serve Christ no matter what happens and not the 'well, I'll serve Him only if this does(n't) happen..')
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