I love Christmas, it's my favorite holiday... but there's something different this year... I want to just skip Christmas and New Years Day. Why? Well, let's go back to May 8th of this year. It was a Monday... and to my dismay, the day it became official, the day my parents got a divorce..
My mom, and sister seem to be taking it like NOTHING ever happened.. as if they were already divorced. Well, they somewhat were... just not legally or whatever. I hate it! I texted my mom that day and asked if the divorce was official, and she said yes. I was in the last hour of school that day (study hall)... and I almost broke down in complete tears... I was fighting them, I lost it that night in my room though.
I want to skip christmas because, every year is always the same, always the same people, always ONE missing from the picture. That one, you ask, is my Dad. The only year that he was there, was the one year that I was sick with a horrible soar throat, a bad cough and a fever.. it was nice that he was there. That's all I want this year... for my dad to actually BE there... and not just "there" but actually involved. I love MY dad ;)
The best gift that a teenage girl like me could ask for this christmas, would be to have my dad there. I don't care if someone gave me the coolest thing on earth, that wouldn't come close to having my dad there. It would be amazing.. oh and on my birthday (2/16) too! I'll be a 16 year old whose NEVER had a birthday party.
As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree
Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul
In the past, I've been given gifts that, to be honest, felt like they were trying to buy my love for them. You can't buy love.. it doesn't work that way. You can't earn it either.
This isn't what Christmas is all about... I mean, yes, I'm sorry there's suffering in the world and what not... but, it's about Jesus!
Why would God come down, leave EVERYTHING, just to die for me? I guess it's because of His love for us.
Romans 5:8 says "God demonstrated His own love for us in this: while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."
Jesus died to save us... He died so that we may have life and life to the fullest (John 10:10). He is the reason to live.
Isaiah 53:5
"But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed."
There's nothing you can do, and there's nothing I can do that'll earn our way to heaven. Jesus said in John 14:6 that HE is the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the father but by me.
Christianity is not some religion, it's a relationship. The word religion, literally means to "bind back"... as if we could ever work our way to a righteous, holy and perfect God. We are sinful, God is too holy to dwell with sin.. it's quite stupid if you ask me... as if working our way to God would ever work!! I think God is far more holy than we think and we're alot more sinful than we think. I mean, compared to God's holy, perfect standard, we fall short.
Romans 3:23
"For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God."
1. God is the perfect one here...
2. We're the farthest from perfect...
3. Jesus is the one who did ALL the work so we could have a relationship with God and have eternal life.
John 3:15
"That everyone who believes in Him may have eternal life."
If we could get to heaven by our "good deeds" than why aren't we able to clean ourselves before we actually take a shower? huh? see, it just don't work that way. Just be quiet and accept Jesus' free gift of eternal life!! ;) If I gave you a million dollars, would you smack me? No. Would you spit at me? No. Would you call me an idiot? No. You'd accept it and be thankful. So, why not accept Jesus' FREE gift of eternal life? It sort of looks like a slap in the face to God when you choose to "earn" your way to heaven by your "good" deeds... He's offered us so much more than a million dollars, He's offered LIFE!! It's a free gift, who in their right mind could ever say 'no' to that? All you have to do is trust in Him... He did the rest already on the cross 2,000 years ago. :) Thank God. We would never reach ultimate perfection!
"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." (Hebrews 12:2)
Merry Christmas ;)
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
If We Are The Body..
I have a serious problem with the atmosphere of the youth group at church... Like tonight, when I walked in there, I wasn't sure if this was a "Christian" atmosphere or a "Worldly" atmosphere. I've noticed there are cliques of people in there... they always seem to just stay with their friends and not go and talk to anyone else.
I remember when this group of teens from another state where there, and one of them, talked to me and it was pretty cool, because she was so loving and caring towards me. It was a little overwhelming. That's what we should do... when we see a new comer, why not run towards them and give them a hug and talk for a good 20 minutes or something?! and have a real conversation?
I remember, tonight, seeing someone, and I'm not sure if he was new or what, but, he looked like he really wasn't convinced this is the LOVING, CARING atmosphere. It was disappointing that the atmosphere was aweful... I walked in there and it was an intense feeling that was in there. And, I'm not going to lie, I wanted to leave.
If someone were to leave church because of the aweful "Christian" atmosphere... I wouldn't blame them. We are supposed to be the most loving, caring, humble, real...etc. people ever. And I didn't feel that tonight at all. I really wanted to leave...
Like in the youth service, what in the world is the focus? Do they make sense when you put them together? Do they support your sermon for the night? Nothing in the service seemed to go together tonight...
Well, after high school, I want to be a youth pastor or something working with teenagers. ;) Whenever we start the Campus Ministry, I pray that the Christian atmosphere will be there and that no one will be able to deny it! The love. The caring. The humbleness. The fun. The atmosphere of people being open about what they believe and why, and etc. and it'll be like a magnet that people wonder why we act the way that we do.
I remember when this group of teens from another state where there, and one of them, talked to me and it was pretty cool, because she was so loving and caring towards me. It was a little overwhelming. That's what we should do... when we see a new comer, why not run towards them and give them a hug and talk for a good 20 minutes or something?! and have a real conversation?
I remember, tonight, seeing someone, and I'm not sure if he was new or what, but, he looked like he really wasn't convinced this is the LOVING, CARING atmosphere. It was disappointing that the atmosphere was aweful... I walked in there and it was an intense feeling that was in there. And, I'm not going to lie, I wanted to leave.
If someone were to leave church because of the aweful "Christian" atmosphere... I wouldn't blame them. We are supposed to be the most loving, caring, humble, real...etc. people ever. And I didn't feel that tonight at all. I really wanted to leave...
Like in the youth service, what in the world is the focus? Do they make sense when you put them together? Do they support your sermon for the night? Nothing in the service seemed to go together tonight...
Well, after high school, I want to be a youth pastor or something working with teenagers. ;) Whenever we start the Campus Ministry, I pray that the Christian atmosphere will be there and that no one will be able to deny it! The love. The caring. The humbleness. The fun. The atmosphere of people being open about what they believe and why, and etc. and it'll be like a magnet that people wonder why we act the way that we do.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Yesssuh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I met with my high school principle today about the campus ministry today during advisory. And when my advisory teacher told me to go to the office, I was soooooo nervous, I prayed like crazy!! It’s great to know that my principle is a Christian and he and other people (including me) pray for staley everyday. Thank God!!
Sometime this week I get to meet with the activities director and talk about it and then I’ll get an official club form to fill out. Now, I gotta find a sponsor (sp?) for it… he told me that the guy will probably ask me if I have one… if I don’t, i hope he’ll help us out.
He assured me that the threat of a shooting, wasn’t credible and that they took care of it and talked to the student... He asked me a question that I can’t remember, but it was about the threat, and I couldn’t help it… I cried. He said he didn’t mean to make me cry…he found my blog post ‘Threat Of A Staley High School Shooting’ He asked me if I thought I was in trouble when he told me he found it, I said no… I was nervous.. don’t know why, I didn’t say anything bad in my blog.
He told me he’s glad I love my high school. My principle seems like a cool guy ;)
Sometime this week I get to meet with the activities director and talk about it and then I’ll get an official club form to fill out. Now, I gotta find a sponsor (sp?) for it… he told me that the guy will probably ask me if I have one… if I don’t, i hope he’ll help us out.
He assured me that the threat of a shooting, wasn’t credible and that they took care of it and talked to the student... He asked me a question that I can’t remember, but it was about the threat, and I couldn’t help it… I cried. He said he didn’t mean to make me cry…he found my blog post ‘Threat Of A Staley High School Shooting’ He asked me if I thought I was in trouble when he told me he found it, I said no… I was nervous.. don’t know why, I didn’t say anything bad in my blog.
He told me he’s glad I love my high school. My principle seems like a cool guy ;)
Sunday, December 13, 2009
I'll Praise You In This Storm
This is alot harder than I imagined... apparently, getting no support from mom has affected me soo much that I can't even eat. And when I cry it hurts... physically, my mouth gets dry and my stomach starts to hurt.
At times, I'm not going to lie about it, I want to quit. But, that's not an option. I (we) have to reach out to my generation... now.
"Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light for my path." -Psalm 119:105
(The light in Bible time lamps, came from candles. In the span of their dim light, a person could only see enough to take the next step. Lamps weren't like flashlights that allow a person to see a long ways down the path. So this verse is a reminder. Let God's word guide your next step. -Teen Study Bible)
"For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His love for those who fear Him." -Psalm 103:11
"When I am afraid, I will trust in You. In God whose word I praise, In God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?" -Psalm 55:3-4
"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him." -Psalm 62:5
"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." -Psalm 35:18
"Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will recieve me." -Psalm 27:10
It is so hard to continue with this campus ministry. I won't give up though. I don't have that option.
Earlier in the car, I don't remember exactly what we were talking about, but, my mom ignorantly claimed to know me... so I tested her because I know she has no idea. I asked, "Then what's my problem?" She is my problem...right now. I mean, yeah, she gave birth to me and raised me, thaty does NOT mean you know me. To know someone, you have to hangout together... and whatever. Ma said that I wouldn't have a problem with people... yet. Explain to me, how stinkin ignorant can someone get?! C'MON!
I'm 100% convinced that Ma does NOT care. Why? Because when I told her, "Someone threated to shoot up Staley." she said; "Oh. That's cool" She doesn't care that OTHER teens lives can be snatched from them... let alone my life... gee Ma, thanks for all the "support". Out of all the people I have met, she certanly counts as one of them or all of them.
This is hard and I know that. I'm determined to see my generation turned around with and by the power of the gospel. Please, don't stop praying for us and the other teens on their high school and middle school campuses in and out of the U.S. We do love and appreciate all of the support.
PRAY. PRAY. PRAY. PRAY.
Matthew 26:41
"Keep alert and pray. Otherwise temptation will overpower you. For though the spirit is willing enough, the body is weak!"
Luke 18:1
Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up.
Ephesians 6:18
And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
Romans 8:26-27
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.
2 Chronicles 7:14
If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
Jeremiah 29:13
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Psalm 34:17
The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.
Psalm 91:15
He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.
Matthew 6:6
But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:6-7).
"…The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective" (James 5:16).
"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus" (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18).
"And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him" (Matthew 6:5-8).
To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everybody else, Jesus told this parable: 'Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. The Pharisee stood up and prayed about himself: "God, I thank you that I am not like other men-robbers, evildoers, adulterers-or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get." But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, "God, have mercy on me, a sinner. I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted"'" (Luke 18:9-14).
What I want to know is, where in the world am I getting my determination to see this generation reached from?! I love it!!
continue to pray for all of us.
At times, I'm not going to lie about it, I want to quit. But, that's not an option. I (we) have to reach out to my generation... now.
"Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light for my path." -Psalm 119:105
(The light in Bible time lamps, came from candles. In the span of their dim light, a person could only see enough to take the next step. Lamps weren't like flashlights that allow a person to see a long ways down the path. So this verse is a reminder. Let God's word guide your next step. -Teen Study Bible)
"For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His love for those who fear Him." -Psalm 103:11
"When I am afraid, I will trust in You. In God whose word I praise, In God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?" -Psalm 55:3-4
"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him." -Psalm 62:5
"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." -Psalm 35:18
"Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will recieve me." -Psalm 27:10
It is so hard to continue with this campus ministry. I won't give up though. I don't have that option.
Earlier in the car, I don't remember exactly what we were talking about, but, my mom ignorantly claimed to know me... so I tested her because I know she has no idea. I asked, "Then what's my problem?" She is my problem...right now. I mean, yeah, she gave birth to me and raised me, thaty does NOT mean you know me. To know someone, you have to hangout together... and whatever. Ma said that I wouldn't have a problem with people... yet. Explain to me, how stinkin ignorant can someone get?! C'MON!
I'm 100% convinced that Ma does NOT care. Why? Because when I told her, "Someone threated to shoot up Staley." she said; "Oh. That's cool" She doesn't care that OTHER teens lives can be snatched from them... let alone my life... gee Ma, thanks for all the "support". Out of all the people I have met, she certanly counts as one of them or all of them.
This is hard and I know that. I'm determined to see my generation turned around with and by the power of the gospel. Please, don't stop praying for us and the other teens on their high school and middle school campuses in and out of the U.S. We do love and appreciate all of the support.
PRAY. PRAY. PRAY. PRAY.
Matthew 26:41
"Keep alert and pray. Otherwise temptation will overpower you. For though the spirit is willing enough, the body is weak!"
Luke 18:1
Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up.
Ephesians 6:18
And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
Romans 8:26-27
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.
2 Chronicles 7:14
If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
Jeremiah 29:13
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Psalm 34:17
The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.
Psalm 91:15
He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.
Matthew 6:6
But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:6-7).
"…The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective" (James 5:16).
"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus" (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18).
"And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him" (Matthew 6:5-8).
To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everybody else, Jesus told this parable: 'Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. The Pharisee stood up and prayed about himself: "God, I thank you that I am not like other men-robbers, evildoers, adulterers-or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get." But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, "God, have mercy on me, a sinner. I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted"'" (Luke 18:9-14).
What I want to know is, where in the world am I getting my determination to see this generation reached from?! I love it!!
continue to pray for all of us.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
So Pumped About Campus Ministry!!!!
Could I get any more stoked? I think so!! God is so amazing. I'm soo glad I go to Staley High School.
If tomorrow isn't a snow day, me and my friend Sara are going to the office to see about the Campus Ministry. These teens need Jesus now before all hell breaks lose at our high school. My friend, Katie, told me that the school shooting by another student was supposed to happen the day she found out... it was planned to happen during the first lunch. I blogged about it, title 'Threat Of A Staley High School Shooting'... just scroll down and you'll eventually find it.
It's crazy! We've got to pray about it... pray for teens to be reached with the message of Jesus and for us to boldly proclaim the gospel as we should and also for us to show the love of Christ to those students. I mean, can't you see it, the one student who sits alone during lunch, being shown and feeling the love of Christ from genuine Christian teenagers?! They feeling actually loved and cared for... the solution to preventing school violence is that. Jesus. No tighter secruity, gun control..or anything else. But only the love and hope that is only found in Jesus alone.
As I said before, I'm so glad I go to Staley. Our high school is our mission field.. Let's do this in the power of Christ!! INVINCIBLE!! Talk about takin your school by storm with the message and mission of Jesus!
Super stoked!! Remember to keep praying for us and all the other teens on their high school and middle school campuses in and out of America.
If tomorrow isn't a snow day, me and my friend Sara are going to the office to see about the Campus Ministry. These teens need Jesus now before all hell breaks lose at our high school. My friend, Katie, told me that the school shooting by another student was supposed to happen the day she found out... it was planned to happen during the first lunch. I blogged about it, title 'Threat Of A Staley High School Shooting'... just scroll down and you'll eventually find it.
It's crazy! We've got to pray about it... pray for teens to be reached with the message of Jesus and for us to boldly proclaim the gospel as we should and also for us to show the love of Christ to those students. I mean, can't you see it, the one student who sits alone during lunch, being shown and feeling the love of Christ from genuine Christian teenagers?! They feeling actually loved and cared for... the solution to preventing school violence is that. Jesus. No tighter secruity, gun control..or anything else. But only the love and hope that is only found in Jesus alone.
As I said before, I'm so glad I go to Staley. Our high school is our mission field.. Let's do this in the power of Christ!! INVINCIBLE!! Talk about takin your school by storm with the message and mission of Jesus!
Super stoked!! Remember to keep praying for us and all the other teens on their high school and middle school campuses in and out of America.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Paitence!!
I gotta be honest, I'm not the most paitent person. Especially if I'm in a hurry and someone, this never seems to fail, is ALWAYS taking their dear sweet time. It's frustrating. I wish we could just stop time... but that's not how God did it.
I remember soo many times where I would do something, like this one time at my grandmas house, I was pretty frezzing cold so I turned the heat up and she yelled at me and said "Don't You EVER do THAT AGAIN!" I'm like "but I was cold..." she said "I don't care, don't you ever touch it." it's extremely irritating. It's hurts too. We are some SELFISH people... pretty heartless too. Way too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance.
Read this: (Found it on myyearbook.com)
This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.
Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, "Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide.
Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.
People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.
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wow. Alright, so I have a confession that I'm VERY disappointed in myself about, I'm not happy to say it, it was a Sunday night in KC, and I guess my grandma had been pushing my buttons for far too long that I, well, snapped. Not verbally... (take a note: I'm not the physically violent type person so this is a shocker to alot) but ALMOST physically... I was holding my little cousin, Caleb, when she ticked me off... Let's just say my mind wasn't focusing... and well, I ALMOST threw my lil cousin at her, but, Thank God, God stopped me and the thought I had was a reality check... it said "What do you think you're doing?!" So, I sat caleb down and didn't pick him back up... I lost all paitence and totally flipped out... It's not something I'm proud of, I'm thankful that God stopped me though. Oh, and on Monday night, the guilt ATTACKED the heck out of me... I didn't know what to do. I needed to be forgiven.
I hate it when the devil just won't back off and keep it under Jesus' blood.
Exactly. So be PAITENT!!
James 1:19-22
19My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, 20for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires. 21Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you. 22Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.
I remember soo many times where I would do something, like this one time at my grandmas house, I was pretty frezzing cold so I turned the heat up and she yelled at me and said "Don't You EVER do THAT AGAIN!" I'm like "but I was cold..." she said "I don't care, don't you ever touch it." it's extremely irritating. It's hurts too. We are some SELFISH people... pretty heartless too. Way too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance.
Read this: (Found it on myyearbook.com)
This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.
Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, "Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide.
Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.
People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.
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wow. Alright, so I have a confession that I'm VERY disappointed in myself about, I'm not happy to say it, it was a Sunday night in KC, and I guess my grandma had been pushing my buttons for far too long that I, well, snapped. Not verbally... (take a note: I'm not the physically violent type person so this is a shocker to alot) but ALMOST physically... I was holding my little cousin, Caleb, when she ticked me off... Let's just say my mind wasn't focusing... and well, I ALMOST threw my lil cousin at her, but, Thank God, God stopped me and the thought I had was a reality check... it said "What do you think you're doing?!" So, I sat caleb down and didn't pick him back up... I lost all paitence and totally flipped out... It's not something I'm proud of, I'm thankful that God stopped me though. Oh, and on Monday night, the guilt ATTACKED the heck out of me... I didn't know what to do. I needed to be forgiven.
I hate it when the devil just won't back off and keep it under Jesus' blood.
Exactly. So be PAITENT!!
James 1:19-22
19My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, 20for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires. 21Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you. 22Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Friday. 12-4-09
So, after reading Andrews' comment, (which was quite encouraging btw. thankyou) I've decided that we HAVE got to do the CM during lunch until we can do it after school. These christian teens need to know how to reach out to those who don't know Jesus. Relational/Relentless.
Maybe, next weekend, me and my friend Sara can go to the mall and share Jesus with random people. :)
Pray with me that I use the 20 minutes for God and nothing else.
Maybe, next weekend, me and my friend Sara can go to the mall and share Jesus with random people. :)
Pray with me that I use the 20 minutes for God and nothing else.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
I Can't Do It Anymore...
I'm sick 'n tired or waiting on the high school people/ person whatever to give us an answer on the campus ministry. I am going to lose my mind... if I haven't already. I'm irritated yet hurt. Teens need Jesus NOW! not later. Later is too late.
Later could be when someone gets pushed over the edge and could commit suicide, or even worse, a high school shooting... is that what'll happen to get everyone's attention? they need HIM now. It's not the hell they're headed to, but the hell they are going through that they need saving from.
I can't do it anymore. I'm sick 'n tired of going to the office and writing reminder notes because the guy is "too busy." It's been almost 2 - 3 months. I'm not even close to convinced they're taking me seriously.
I'll NEED to have an adult come or call up there and convince them about the campus ministry. Teens reaching teens til every teen is reached.THE cause.
I don't know who should call up there.... I want someone to do it though.
At lunch today, I didn't even try to bring the CM up. 20 minutes just isn't even close to enough time... just seems like sheer pep talk time before an evangelism happens. I don't know who'll take me seriously..
Who is passionate about seeing teens reach teens with the message and mission of Jesus? I am. Are you? We really need an adult somewhere, anywhere to not sit out on the sidelines, like it feels like some of you already are doing.
To be honest, in Kansas City, I don't know anyone who'll call my high school and explain to them the importance of the campus ministry and why we need more than just a bible study. Agh, please help. it's all I ask. What if this prevents the high school shooting? What if it saves a student from commiting suicide? What if a student decides to improve... academically? What if every teen in america is reached with the gospel? What if ever school teacher, administrator, janiter, etc at every school is reached because of a teenager?
Are you willing to help us? please. Every second someone dies and possibly ends up in Hell... Don't let satan have one more!!
**Because of you, Jesus can become real to MY generation.
PSA 37:24 though he stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him
with his hand.
The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O LORD, endures
forever--do not abandon the works of your hands (in the bible somewhere)
Jereimah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD "plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future."
(in the bible somewhere) "and my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus, our Lord"
Hebrews 10:19-39... (its pretty long so I'll save space.)
"God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." -Romans 8:28
5 "I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in
him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.
7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish,
and it will be given you.
9 "As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.
Romans 2:7 To those who by persistence in doing good seek glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life.
Later could be when someone gets pushed over the edge and could commit suicide, or even worse, a high school shooting... is that what'll happen to get everyone's attention? they need HIM now. It's not the hell they're headed to, but the hell they are going through that they need saving from.
I can't do it anymore. I'm sick 'n tired of going to the office and writing reminder notes because the guy is "too busy." It's been almost 2 - 3 months. I'm not even close to convinced they're taking me seriously.
I'll NEED to have an adult come or call up there and convince them about the campus ministry. Teens reaching teens til every teen is reached.THE cause.
I don't know who should call up there.... I want someone to do it though.
At lunch today, I didn't even try to bring the CM up. 20 minutes just isn't even close to enough time... just seems like sheer pep talk time before an evangelism happens. I don't know who'll take me seriously..
Who is passionate about seeing teens reach teens with the message and mission of Jesus? I am. Are you? We really need an adult somewhere, anywhere to not sit out on the sidelines, like it feels like some of you already are doing.
To be honest, in Kansas City, I don't know anyone who'll call my high school and explain to them the importance of the campus ministry and why we need more than just a bible study. Agh, please help. it's all I ask. What if this prevents the high school shooting? What if it saves a student from commiting suicide? What if a student decides to improve... academically? What if every teen in america is reached with the gospel? What if ever school teacher, administrator, janiter, etc at every school is reached because of a teenager?
Are you willing to help us? please. Every second someone dies and possibly ends up in Hell... Don't let satan have one more!!
**Because of you, Jesus can become real to MY generation.
PSA 37:24 though he stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him
with his hand.
The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O LORD, endures
forever--do not abandon the works of your hands (in the bible somewhere)
Jereimah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD "plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future."
(in the bible somewhere) "and my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus, our Lord"
Hebrews 10:19-39... (its pretty long so I'll save space.)
"God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." -Romans 8:28
5 "I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in
him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.
7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish,
and it will be given you.
9 "As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.
Romans 2:7 To those who by persistence in doing good seek glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Threat Of A Staley High School Shooting
To be honest, I don't know where to start on this. I think I'll give you some of my history. I grew up and lived in Kansas til the end of freshman year in High School... Then, me and mom moved to Kansas City, Missouri and I love my new high school. it's alot different and alot bigger than my old high school...but, .....
To cut to the chase, in Self Development, people were talking about the threat someone had made to shoot the school up. That doesn't make me feel good, nor is that a good way to end the school day on a terrible note. It freaks me out... not for my life, but for their lives... What IF they don't know Jesus? What happens? Who loves them enough to risk their friendships with them by sharing the gospel?
Matthew 10:28
28Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell.
It freaks me out that these teens could be robbed of their life here on earth and that could be caused by a school shooting... Heck, I could even die because of a school shooting. But, 'to live is Christ. to die is gain.' . I have to tell them about Jesus! and so do you.
I told my mom earlier... … she had basically the same response as when I told her about the campus ministry… I told her “I don’t know if I told you, but someone threatend to shoot up Staley.” she said, “Oh, that’s cool.” her tone of voice came across as sarcasm.. which said ‘well, they’re dumb..’ I thought, ‘No! it’s not cool. Was columbine cool?! and No, They’re not dumb. they need Jesus. They’re full of anger and hatred and pain that they don’t know what to do and they do crazy things because it’s eating away at them and they assume that a HS shooting will make them feel better.’
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GpBuEuagZxE <-- video embeding was disabled. This video is ; Jeremy Camp - There Will Be A Day - Video Devotional Someone’s gotta share Jesus with them… before someone loses their mind and decides to do a high school shooting… I don’t understand it. Greg (ma doesn’t count) is the only one that I’ve told about this… I want to tell more people but I’m scared I’ll get the same reaction from them as mom. oh, and my friend Katie told me that it was supposed to happen the day she found out. I’m grateful it didn’t… but scared that it very well could and lives be robbed from these teenagers... The fact that Staley High was threatened with a shooting, makes me miss Kansas. (The only time I will ever say that I miss KS). We have a message and a mission that we can't keep to ourselves... so, what are you waiting for?!
PLEASE pray for my high school? and pray for those crazy Christian teens who dare to share the BEST message ever on our high school campus(es) in a relational/relentless way? We do appreciate all the prayers and support we have recieved. You guys rock!!
2Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. 3And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains. 4Pray that I may proclaim it clearly, as I should. 5Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. 6Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.
Colossians 4:2-6
I'm aware that this threat was like close to the beginning of the year, but still, I'm not one known not to take it seriously... just because it hasn't happened doesn't give us any excuse to 100% dismiss it. please pray.
To cut to the chase, in Self Development, people were talking about the threat someone had made to shoot the school up. That doesn't make me feel good, nor is that a good way to end the school day on a terrible note. It freaks me out... not for my life, but for their lives... What IF they don't know Jesus? What happens? Who loves them enough to risk their friendships with them by sharing the gospel?
Matthew 10:28
28Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell.
It freaks me out that these teens could be robbed of their life here on earth and that could be caused by a school shooting... Heck, I could even die because of a school shooting. But, 'to live is Christ. to die is gain.' . I have to tell them about Jesus! and so do you.
I told my mom earlier... … she had basically the same response as when I told her about the campus ministry… I told her “I don’t know if I told you, but someone threatend to shoot up Staley.” she said, “Oh, that’s cool.” her tone of voice came across as sarcasm.. which said ‘well, they’re dumb..’ I thought, ‘No! it’s not cool. Was columbine cool?! and No, They’re not dumb. they need Jesus. They’re full of anger and hatred and pain that they don’t know what to do and they do crazy things because it’s eating away at them and they assume that a HS shooting will make them feel better.’
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GpBuEuagZxE <-- video embeding was disabled. This video is ; Jeremy Camp - There Will Be A Day - Video Devotional Someone’s gotta share Jesus with them… before someone loses their mind and decides to do a high school shooting… I don’t understand it. Greg (ma doesn’t count) is the only one that I’ve told about this… I want to tell more people but I’m scared I’ll get the same reaction from them as mom. oh, and my friend Katie told me that it was supposed to happen the day she found out. I’m grateful it didn’t… but scared that it very well could and lives be robbed from these teenagers... The fact that Staley High was threatened with a shooting, makes me miss Kansas. (The only time I will ever say that I miss KS). We have a message and a mission that we can't keep to ourselves... so, what are you waiting for?!
PLEASE pray for my high school? and pray for those crazy Christian teens who dare to share the BEST message ever on our high school campus(es) in a relational/relentless way? We do appreciate all the prayers and support we have recieved. You guys rock!!
2Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. 3And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains. 4Pray that I may proclaim it clearly, as I should. 5Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. 6Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.
Colossians 4:2-6
I'm aware that this threat was like close to the beginning of the year, but still, I'm not one known not to take it seriously... just because it hasn't happened doesn't give us any excuse to 100% dismiss it. please pray.
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