When Everything Falls Apart

I love that moment when you're flipping through the music on your mp3 player and you find that one perfect song. You know what I mean, that one song that just describes everything about the way you're feeling.
Well, I just did that very thing... and this is the song that just made me think "That's it!"

The song is Everything Falls by Fee. << Youtube it. (I can't post it here because this school laptop is being dumb and has it, with every single random- and I do mean random- thing blocked... but I can post the lyrics from a site that has the right lyrics! You said
You'd never leave or forsake me
When you said,
This life is gonna shake me
You said
This world is gonna bring trouble on my soul
This I know

When everything falls apart
Your arms hold me together
When everything falls apart
You're the only hope for this heart
When everything falls apart
And my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong
You keep holding on

If you know me at all, you'd know this song is for someone like me you will not give up for anything. I won't give up when giving in to the idea of giving up seems so much easier than persuing after whatever it is that Jesus has called me to do. I won't give up, ever. Why? well, reason #1 it's not in the book. #2 it sure as heck aint an option for me or for you.

Giving up does sound easy, but it's not acceptable. we must not give up. We must continue to fight the fight.

Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses. (1 Timothy 6:12)

You know I have to say this, it's been hard for me but it's all worth it. It's hard when your stuck with a very unsupportive mother (sorry ma, but you are. I do love ya, but, you're not helping me very well. was I too blunt?) who says it alot better than she can show it. Get real! please.

Why do I say she's unsupportive?
well ;

#1: I told her about the Campus Ministry and all she said was 'that's cool'

#2: I told her about the threat of a high school shooting (which isn't credible, but, it could very well happen.. we can never be sure) and what did she say? 'oh, that's cool' for real? did my mom really just say that a threat of high school shooting was cool? first, she dismisses that threat (credible or not, she'd still miss the point) second, by dismissing the threat, she dismisses their real need... a spiritual one. their need to feel like they matter, like someone loves them, like someone will actually listen.... like someone who will risk everything and go share Jesus with them.

#3 I told her about the school district planning on changing the block schedules for next year... going from 4 classes a day, 2 nights to do homework, to 8 classes a day and one night to do all of your homework... she wasn't getting that either... she doesn't get how every student is going to be extremely stressed out, and what about the teachers!? goodness. how are they going to grade all those papers!?

it's stressful just thinking about #3... it's not how I planned Junior year of high school to be, but, pray please!!

I mean, I guess I can't blame Ma for all of this... but, she is the majority.. and I do not mean that in a good way.

Just being a Christian who isn't ashamed of the gospel, is a battle today.
it's hard, but I'm willing to go where I'm sent. Are you?

Well, I guess simply put, I'd say never give up and at times you may feel at odds, but bring it! with God nothing is impossible!

The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. (Psalm 18:2)

I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. (John 16:33)