This Christmas

I love Christmas, it's my favorite holiday... but there's something different this year... I want to just skip Christmas and New Years Day. Why? Well, let's go back to May 8th of this year. It was a Monday... and to my dismay, the day it became official, the day my parents got a divorce..

My mom, and sister seem to be taking it like NOTHING ever happened.. as if they were already divorced. Well, they somewhat were... just not legally or whatever. I hate it! I texted my mom that day and asked if the divorce was official, and she said yes. I was in the last hour of school that day (study hall)... and I almost broke down in complete tears... I was fighting them, I lost it that night in my room though.

I want to skip christmas because, every year is always the same, always the same people, always ONE missing from the picture. That one, you ask, is my Dad. The only year that he was there, was the one year that I was sick with a horrible soar throat, a bad cough and a fever.. it was nice that he was there. That's all I want this year... for my dad to actually BE there... and not just "there" but actually involved. I love MY dad ;)

The best gift that a teenage girl like me could ask for this christmas, would be to have my dad there. I don't care if someone gave me the coolest thing on earth, that wouldn't come close to having my dad there. It would be amazing.. oh and on my birthday (2/16) too! I'll be a 16 year old whose NEVER had a birthday party.



As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree

Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul

In the past, I've been given gifts that, to be honest, felt like they were trying to buy my love for them. You can't buy love.. it doesn't work that way. You can't earn it either.

This isn't what Christmas is all about... I mean, yes, I'm sorry there's suffering in the world and what not... but, it's about Jesus!



Why would God come down, leave EVERYTHING, just to die for me? I guess it's because of His love for us.

Romans 5:8 says "God demonstrated His own love for us in this: while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."



Jesus died to save us... He died so that we may have life and life to the fullest (John 10:10). He is the reason to live.

Isaiah 53:5
"But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed."

There's nothing you can do, and there's nothing I can do that'll earn our way to heaven. Jesus said in John 14:6 that HE is the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the father but by me.

Christianity is not some religion, it's a relationship. The word religion, literally means to "bind back"... as if we could ever work our way to a righteous, holy and perfect God. We are sinful, God is too holy to dwell with sin.. it's quite stupid if you ask me... as if working our way to God would ever work!! I think God is far more holy than we think and we're alot more sinful than we think. I mean, compared to God's holy, perfect standard, we fall short.

Romans 3:23
"For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God."

1. God is the perfect one here...
2. We're the farthest from perfect...
3. Jesus is the one who did ALL the work so we could have a relationship with God and have eternal life.

John 3:15
"That everyone who believes in Him may have eternal life."

If we could get to heaven by our "good deeds" than why aren't we able to clean ourselves before we actually take a shower? huh? see, it just don't work that way. Just be quiet and accept Jesus' free gift of eternal life!! ;) If I gave you a million dollars, would you smack me? No. Would you spit at me? No. Would you call me an idiot? No. You'd accept it and be thankful. So, why not accept Jesus' FREE gift of eternal life? It sort of looks like a slap in the face to God when you choose to "earn" your way to heaven by your "good" deeds... He's offered us so much more than a million dollars, He's offered LIFE!! It's a free gift, who in their right mind could ever say 'no' to that? All you have to do is trust in Him... He did the rest already on the cross 2,000 years ago. :) Thank God. We would never reach ultimate perfection!

"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." (Hebrews 12:2)

Merry Christmas ;)